My happy blog.

Soo... Lately I have been eating anything and everything!!!! I am pretty sure that I am gaining weight, because I also have not worked out AT ALL in probably 3 weeks. The weird part is... I am sooo happy! I know, I know, this whole blog is "supposed" to be about my strict diet habits, and what I am doing at the gym and elsewhere that is finally going to give me the six pack that I have always wanted, but you know what... I don't want it anymore! I have never had a REAL problem with my weight, size, shape or anything like that. I don't know where I got it into my head that I had to have a supermodel figure... I seriously need to face reality! IT'S NOT GOING TO HAPPEN! I guess it could... if I had enough free time to workout twice a day, hire a personal trainer, and a personal chef to cook all my weight friendly meals.. but that is never going to happen.

I like my body! I think I have good height, my size is proportionate to that, and thanks to a very good plastic surgeon... other parts of me are also proportionate ;) If I had one complaint it would be my thighs, but it has ALWAYS been my thighs, even when I was a national swimmer it was my thighs! If I can go through my whole life of being an athlete, and always have a problem with my thighs I think that is something I am just going to have to get used to...

So... I am changing what this blog is all about! I have tried counting calories, I have tried being on a strict workout regimen, and while I did go through a period where I lost 10 pounds and felt pretty good about my body I wasn't genuinely happy. So, this blog is now going to feature articles about me loving my body, and about me doing things that make me happy; whether that be a workout, or going to The Hat at 11pm because Billy and I have a craving... welcome to the new me :) I love my body and I am going to be confident from now on!!!!

I DID IT!!!

Today I stayed under my calorie limit! WOO HOO! I am so proud :) and... I'm not feeling hungry at all! I also don't feel like I over indulged in anything throughout the day today, so that is good! I also got a good swim workout in today. I only did one workout though because I am SUPER sore from yesterday. I am not sure if it's from swim practice or my six week six pack DVD... probably a little bit of both! YAY! I am starting to feel like this is the beginning of me getting back into it... not only am I jumping back on the eating healthy and working out horse, I am also getting back into swimming shape YAY! I am no where near where I would like to be, but it is a work in progress and I am taking baby steps to make sure I get there :) After tomorrow I will have swam 4 days this week which is pretty good! And I can feel myself getting more comfortable in the water which also feels pretty good!

I gave in....

So, it turns out... I gave into temptation tonight while at work. The good news is it wasn't bread (YAY!!) The bad news is...... it was a slice of peach pie from Marie Callendar's. I LOVE peaches, and when my manager's brought it out... I should have walked away... But I just couldn't help myself!!!!!!!!! Once I gave in I kinda went nuts. I had a few bites of a Tomato Basil Pasta, and a few bites from our brand new Hershey's Chocolate Bar Cheesecake. I am not going to add these items into my log because it will just upset me, I will just have to know that I went over my calories yet again (seems to be an ongoing trend the past few days).

The good news about today is that I worked out twice! I did a 30 min. Jullian Michaels DVD that kicked my ass, and I also went to swim practice. I probably burned off close to the amount of calories I consumed today in my workouts... but it still doesn't make up for giving into the temptation. I think once I start working behind the bar it might be easier for me to not eat while at work, since I will be stuck behind the bar and there won't be an unlimited food supply at my disposal. My calorie counter app does not incorporate my calories burned into my daily caloric intake. I can input the calories I have burned throughout the day, but it will not add those calories back into what I am allowed to eat... should it? I am thinking being able to consume the calories that I have burned would kind of defeat the purpose of burning them... I think I am okay with sticking to 1500 calories a day, and also trying to burn at least 1000 calories a day. I will keep these two things separate. But, I will keep telling myself that going over today was kinda sorta alright since I did workout so much :)

stupid work!!!!!

Like I said earlier... I have reached my calorie limit for today. Working in a restaurant is not condusive to a healthy eating style! I get bored, I wanna eat... I get hungry, there are plenty of goodies to satisfy my hunger... but I can't!!!!!! I need some motivation right now, because the rush just ended, and now all I wanna do is smack on bread and french fries... please world give me the will power to sustain from eating crap!!!

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back up to 1500

I just moved my calories intake back up to 1500. It is pretty much impossible to stick to 1200. It makes me sad every day to see that I have gone over my calories, and it sucks to be super hungry all day... when i lost 10 pounds before I was at 1500, hopefully it will work for me again this time.

Bad news is I am at 1500 already for today and it is only 5pm...... I will have to go the rest of the night with water only.... good news is im pretty full right now so hopefully I can do it :)

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I'm so mad at myself!

I have been sooooooo bad lately! I've gotten back into the habit of just eating whatever I want, whenever I want and just not caring. The bad part is I haven't even been working out enough to compensate for all the crap I have been eating... ugh!!!!! I was doing sooooooo good before I went to the river in june, and I just can't seem to get back into eating well and working out since then... I am getting sick of making commitments to myself all the time and breaking them :( I have made so many new mantra's and approaches to this whole weight loss thing, and nothing seems to work. So.... this is me saying yet again that I am ready to re-commit myself to working out regularly and eating healthy!

Starting tomorrow... because today I went over my calories, and didn't work out...

I really need to get a yoga dvd!

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