Figures.......

Me and Billy tried to go swimming this morning. I was so excited about it... first day back, new mantra, Billy was joining me... I was planning on getting a pretty good workout in. Well the universe has another plan for me, because it decided to send out the Santa Ana winds and close the pool.

One good thing came out of this, i got home in time to go with my dad to visit my grandma :)

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After 2 weeks of laziness and constant eating... I'm back!

So I have decided that I am going to change up my strategy. Although I still believe in everything that I said in my previous blog, there is just no way that I will be able to pay for a personal trainer. In fact... I am still considering canceling both my rock climbing and gym memberships. This would free up $50 a month from my budget (which is desperately needed at the moment). I guess if I can't afford it, well then I can't afford it and that is that! More news on this subject to come...

My other thing is... eating, eating, eating...! Something needs to be done about this. It has already been established that I am not a big fan of counting my calories, and since I am not doing my student teaching anymore I think it would be tedious to plan out my meals in advance. Although these things are true, calorie counting is essential to keep track of your food intake as well as your portion control! I wouldn't say I am the most healthy eater in the world, but I do think I eat fairly good for myself.

Working out obviously goes hand in hand with eating right and continuing on the road to loosing weight. I was doing really well with going to the gym every morning and taking classes. This lasted a little over 2 weeks and quickly faded out. With not one piece of me missing the gym at all (red flag for wether or not I should cancel my membership....??) I am not sure how I am going to be able to motivate myself to work out. Here is what I think, the more I run the more I enjoy it, I also enjoy swimming and doing things outdoors. That will be the basis of my workout routine. I also plan on researching ways to work the two areas of my body (tummy, thunder thighs) so that I CAN achieve my desired results.

My promise(s) to myself: 


1. I promise to try my hardest to keep up with my calorie counting. I also promise not to be down on myself for missing some calories/meals/days!
2. I promise to watch what I eat without making myself go CRAZY! A balanced, well portioned diet will go a long way.
3. I promise to workout, frequency undetermined.
4. I promise to weigh myself once a week (every Sunday morning).

The more I read over everything I have written tonight the more I think this will be my body and health mantra. I want to make sure I stay positive, no beating myself up! frequency undetermined, because after all... I want to stay happy and I don't want to kill myself with workouts. If I take a day or two off then it's because I felt I needed it, and I will get back to it when I'm ready no judgments of myself.

Bottom line, I want to feel good in my own skin. All the pressure is on me to make sure that happens, I just hope my mind and my body can collaborate on this matter!

Swimsuit time!!!

Just bought my new bathing suits for the summer!!!!!!!! Now my body just needs to get ready for what it will look like while wearing them!

None

No counting calories, no working out, no watching what I eat, NONE! I feel so up and down about working out and counting calories and eating healthy... I want to hot body, but am I too lazy to commit? Or do I just not know enough about eating and working out to keep it up? Am I really just that lazy?

It's true I DO want to reach my goal weight (135 pounds I am currently just shy of 150). I DO want a nice flat stomach with no trace of a muffin top whatsoever. I DO want smaller thighs that don't feel like they are going to rip every pair of jeans that I put on. The only problem, I don't know how to workout to achieve MY maximum desired results. I am just generally working out running, swimming, taking classes at the gym, etc. But what do I need to actually do day in and day out to ensure that these things do happen?

I mentioned in a previous blog about my friend Aaron inviting me to his gym called cross-fit. It is more of a personal training team type atmosphere with a nutritionist in house. I was seriously considering joining. This sounds like just what I need, a group of professionals that are going to train me to achieve my results, a team that is going through the same thing as me, camaraderie, a coach to tell me what to do! the only problem... it would cost me $100 every month. There is NO WAY I would be able to afford that, especially after looking at my finances in greater detail (currently I am making less money than it will cost to pay my bills each month... YIKES). Something I am considering is a personal trainer at the gym I go to. I would look into the pricing, and if it fit into my budget I would replace the rock climbing gym :( with the personal trainer. As much as I DO NOT want to cancel my rock climbing membership, I am just not using it enough....

Bottom line is.... something needs to be done on a more personal level for me to achieve ANY type of results! River in June... Hawaii next year... it is seriously time to crack down!!!

This is what I aspire to look like!!!

stupid internet!

The internet is not working at my house currently.... ugh! I guess i will post tomorrow....

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How can I make working out daily?

It is so hard for me to get into a routine that I can actually stick to! It is very frustrating. I have so many goals that I want to obtain (pertaining to my body) but I just can't stick with anything long enough to see any of my goals. I think that is actually part of the problem.. I never see actual results, so as time goes on I am less and less motivated to stick with it. I was doing really good for a while, but my weight pretty much stayed the same and then I started to get lazy. I need to come up with a goal that has measurable results not just, "I'm going to work out for 7 days in a row and log all my calories." I need one like that has a result at the end that I can see... example: weight loss or inches lost in my waist and or thighs! I also think I need a better attitude about my body, I am so insecure about everything I am sure that doesn't help.... what can I do???

My friend from work asked me to join his workout club called crossfit. It is more of like a team thing with trainers and coaches and other people that you are working out with. He has like the best body ever, so it obviously works... only problem is it costs $100 a month... I do not have an extra $100 a month to spend on working out. I am actually considering canceling my gym membership because I can't really afford it and I would rather be putting that money into my credit card debt... I want to be able to get the body I want without the gym. I want to be able to workout outside and do more fun outdoors things like tennis and running and hiking and things like that... The only problem with that is can I push myself hard enough to get the results I want??

I'm feeling very lazy and fat.

I haven't been doing to much lately... just been feeling really blah... I've been eating way too much and not working out at all! I am in desperate need of some motivation...

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OH MAN!!!

So... I didn't go over my calories today... or so I thought! I got a new phone recently and I had to re-download my app... my RTI was reset back to 2000 calories :( so I didn't go over 2000 which is good... I guess...

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I'm feeling a little sore

I didn't notice at all yesterday, but I am very sore in my shoulders from the p90x workout yesterday. I think that's a good thing :) I am planning on doing day 2 later today :)

Also I got up this morning (without my alarm miraculously) and went running! I did almost 4 miles :) It wasn't as pretty as the beach... but I got it done :)

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I went over my calories today...

I am a little bit sad that I went over my calories again today. There is one thing in my food diary that I totally splurged on today I'll admit that... it was a Pillsbury cinnamon roll I had for breakfast. Billy made them, and I wouldn't have eaten one except he made them, so I had to have one!  

So I will admit that my food choices today were not the best.... I was at 55% of my RDI going into my dinner which should have been plenty of calories, but Billy and I decided to have a burger from work. ALTHOUGH... we did omit the mayo AND honey mustard dressing from the burger which is not included in my calorie counting, which probably brings me back down enough to not be over!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!! This doesn't change the fact that I made some unhealthy decisions today.... Well I fessed up! It actually feels really good to have logged everything that I ate with honesty. I think the more I do this the more honest I will be with myself when choosing meals. I wrote in an earlier post that I hated calorie counting... really though it's not that bad I think a lot of the time I am just afraid to know how much I am actually eating. I am going to try and stay within my 1600 calorie allowance and still eat what I want! That was the other big thing that got me, I was having massive cravings because I was holding back from a lot of things. It's evident that I cannot restrict myself from eating the things that I like, I am just going to have to learn how to portion control these things better!!!! 

p.s. I did day one of p90x today! Tomorrow I am going to go for a run in the morning (if the weather cooperates), Miranda and I may or may not be going rock climbing, and I am going to try and fit day 2 of p9ox in there :) 

Swimming friend or foe?

When I started working out again about 3 weeks ago I was diligently going to classes at the gym, and habitually counting my calories. Somewhere in the last three weeks Billy decided he wanted to start swimming with me. I think this interest started with him being curious about a gym membership. I got him a guest pass, but the only thing he wants to do at the gym is swim. I think this is because all the guys that work out in the free weights area are like super buff and know what they are doing... and Billy kinda doesn't so he would feel embarrassed. In the pool (usually) it is just us and old people, or people that don't know how to swim as well as I do (and thanks to me Billy now as well) which makes him feel more confident. This is SOOO awesome, I love that Billy is working out, and that he is enjoying swimming! But, what about me? All this swimming with Billy and trying to get him into shape (in addition to me boycotting calorie counting) has pretty much landed me right back where I started. Granted I am working out much more consistently than I ever have post-athlete, but now I am not getting as good of a workout in the pool. I try and write good workouts for myself, but it's not the same as having a coach, or an instructor telling me what to do and really pushing me to my limits. I feel as though I need to get two workouts in now because swimming alone just won't cut it. I did buy myself those weights recently, and I DO have the P90X dvd's.... I think I might just start putting those to some good use :) AND... as much as I hate to say it... I think I am going to try my best to start counting calories again... IN FACT I am going to update my food diary RIGHT NOW! I lied.... I am not! I started, and realized when I was at 98% and still needed to enter food that I would be going over....

So.... I went over.... and tomorrow is Monday... time to start over!!! The end!

I hate counting calories!

I can't be the only one who hates this tedious task right? I mean half the stuff I eat I have a hard time finding on the database, so I end up just guessing anyways... also, I am the kind of person who wants to eat what I want to eat! I think I might try not counting, and doing my best to eat healthy. One thing counting has taught me though is that (before) I was eating WAY more than I needed to in a meal, and in a day as well. So it has taught me how to portion control myself, which is good! And maybe I will count a couple days a week just to check that I am in my 1600 calorie range :)

About to go to pilates, and p.s. I am still 145 so I am maintaining that weight, and hopefully I will start to loose again after another 2 weeks of intense workout :) Billy has been working out hard in the pool lately which is really awesome! He is getting me back into the pool, and I am having fun writing him workouts and working out together with him! I hope he ends up getting a gym pass!

Pizza for Dinner

So I am trying to plan what I eat today around what I know I will be having for dinner...

Billy and I are going to a ducks game tonight, and with are tickets we are also getting free pizza from this place called Oggi's. I called Oggi's and they do not have their nutritional information available (not even in store) so I called BJ's and asked what the calorie count is in a mini cheese and tomato pizza. I am assuming that the pizza I eat tonight will be similar in size, and so hopefully around the same calories. The good news is that if my assumptions are correct, it is less calories than I thought! The BJ's pizza adds up to 592 calories for the whole thing so I looked up a cheese pizza from my database (I would have added the BJ's pizza but I only asked for the calorie count) that was around the same calories and added it. the one I chose is actually 667 calories. I figured I should give myself a little extra room just in case this Oggi's pizza is more...

Also, I LOST ANOTHER POUND! I think I may have written about that this morning? But I can't stop thinking about it! I am so excited to be back down to 145! Only 10 more pounds to go before I reach my goal weight :) I went to body works this morning and as usual it kicked my butt!!! But I LOVED every minute of it!!! Tomorrow I have the MS walk which me and Billy are planning on running (partly for the workout and mostly because everyone walks and last year we were the first ones back and had first pick of free lunch and all the other freebees they were giving away!)

So now I need to go and get ready for the game tonight! I already painted my nails black and orange for ducks, now I just need to figure out what I am going to wear... I have a ducks t-shirt, but it's a little small (kid shirt) and it kinda chokes me around the neck. I am considering cutting it, but I don't want to ruin it.... although if I do manage to cut it I have a nice orange tank top I can wear under that will go perfectly! Wish me luck! :)

I'm back in the game!

So I weighed myself this morning, and I am PROUD to report that I am back down to 145! I am soooo happy! I have lost 5 pounds since I have gotten back from Lake Tahoe (less than 2 weeks). I am assuming if I continue on this path that I will also continue to loose weight and tone up my body :) This is sooo exciting! I can't wait to purchase some new bathing suits from VS later! I have my eye on a few :)

I am going to a ducks game tonight, and Billy bought us tickets that also include a free pizza. The place is called oggi's, I have never seen or heard of it except when we are at Duck's games and apparently they do not have their nutritional information up anywhere online. I am assuming it can't be any more calories than a mini pizza at BJ's (who also do not have their nutritional information up online). I will be that annoying customer who calls and asks! Maybe I will try calling Oggi's first..... So glad this will be on the phone and not in person! haha!

Nothing...

So today, I did absolutely nothing... Like I said in my last blog I have been feeling very BLAH the past few days. I think it has a lot to do with being on my period, but I also think it has a lot to do with my mind. It has been almost two weeks of working out, and I really haven't worked out this hard since I was an athlete. I go through spurts of wanting a better body and working out a couple of days, but I am starting to think this is the push between a spurt and a way of life. My body is over it and it's telling me to get back into lazy mode, but I am doing my best to try and push through it! I am starting to notice little changes in my body, and I want those changes to grow into big positive changes!

Tomorrow I am going to body works, and I LOVE that class, so hopefully it will whip me out of this funk!

It's getting hard now!

So for the past week and a half I have worked out EVERYDAY! I just started my period last night and I am feeling very BLAH! I don't want to do anything besides lay in my bed an be extra lazy. I actually dragged myself out of bed yesterday and went to step class, but at class I was not really all there and was pretty much half assing through the whole workout. I still produced a TON of sweat so that must mean I did a little work right? I came home and pretty much did nothing else all day... My room is a DISASTER and I can't stand looking at it, but I don't have the energy to clean it... UGH! I am going to pilates this morning with Ashley and we will get some treadmill action in after class. Hopefully I will have the energy to get through it.

I just keep telling myself that I want this, and my bikini body is on it's way :) Every time I look in the mirror I find that I am checking myself out, I think I can see a difference but I'm not sure if there really is one or if I am just making out like there is a difference? Hopefully there is :) haha I know that a week and a half is a little soon to be expecting a six pack, but I'm just going to keep on keeping on and work towards the best body ever!

Cheat Day...

So I decided that today will be a cheat day... I haven't logged my calories and I am not sure if I should... It's not that I ate really bad, I think I may have just eaten too much here is what I had today:

breakfast: Banana
lunch: Marie Callender's-- salad bar salad (iceburg greens, mushrooms, carrots, eggs, peas, chicken, and honey mustard dressing) and 2 small cups of tomato bisque soup. Also some fresh fruit, cottage cheese, and a tiny portion of their pasta salad.
dinner: Turnkey sandwich (on healthy bread), some kettle chips, and an apple
snack: an orange at work.

All in all not too bad... but just a lot.... so yes this will be my cheat day!

Like I said earlier, I went to the gym by myself this morning, but really it wasn't that bad. I brought my new yoga mat, and my hand weights which was awesome... but it's really hard carrying around 30 pounds in weights... so needless to say I left after my weight class so I didn't have to chug my stuff around the gym. Tomorrow is step with Roz.... I'm afraid!!!!!!

All by myself...

So today I have body works at 8:30. Amy usually goes with me, and today I had the possibility of Ashley coming too. Billy was going to meet me at the gym after the class to get our swim on... but Amy's daughter is sick so she is staying home, Ashley  is too sore to walk upstairs from her workout the last two days in a row, and Billy didn't get any sleep last night so he refused to get out of bed this morning :( And I am left with just me....

I bought a brand new yoga mat yesterday! I decided that using the ones at the gym makes me feel gross! Do they even wash those things? I know everyone sweats all over them, at least I do! I also bought some hand weights for myself :) I am not a big fan of the ones we use in body works, now I can love my weights AND do them at home as well :) yay!! Maybe I will start incorporating some video workouts in addition to my gym workouts! I do have the P90X videos :)

I am proud to say that today will be my 8th day in a row working out :) The downside to this is that I still weigh 148.... I am convinced this is because I am about to start my period and my body is just saying... fuck you I wanna be bloated! Don't worry though I have not strayed from my diet, and these workouts will catch up to my body eventually (hopefully)! Well it's off to body works for me :)

Day 7??!!??!!

So I wasn't planning on working out today. I did my six days and I was just going to sleep in, take it easy, and mentally prepare myself for next week. But a friend from work suggested the body works class this morning at 8:30 and I decided I'm going to go with her. Yesterday I did the hike (6.2 miles) but I did barely any running and just walked with my mom the entire time, so I figured that could be my take it easy day since I'm sure walking doesn't do too much for me since I'm walking all day every day and today I would do a workout :) The only hard part about this is... Amy and I do body works in the morning on Monday as well, so two days in a row of body works might be quite rough... wish me luck with that!

Billy is seriously considering buying a gym membership! He is going to come and do the 3 day free trial starting Monday and see how he likes it. I am not sure how it will be... We are planning on going swimming, I am going to try and get him to come to the body works class (it is weights) and then go swim after, but if he doesn't go for that then I will just have him meet me after the class to go swimming. I am going to turn him into a good swimmer :) This will be fun!!!

Day 6

Today is going to be the 6th day in a row that I have worked out! I am so proud of that number. I didn't make a goal about how many days I would work out or anything... my only goal was to get healthy and love my body. I think this will end up happening if I keep working out this way and eating right :)

I am going on the 5 mile hike again with my mom and our neighbors. This time though I am bringing sophia :) I'm excited!!!!

Day number 5

So I am up early and about to start getting ready for body works :) YAY! After this class I will have officially worked out 5 days in a row :) Because of all this working out I am feeling more confident in my body, and I think that in and of itself will help me to loose weight and reach my goals! I actually didn't feel too bad in my bathing suit yesterday at the pool. My only complaint would be my legs, which is always a complaint so no surprise there.

Daily Nuggets:
1. I still can't get how awesome yesterday was out of my head!
2. I don't work tonight until 6, maybe I will actually get some laundry done?
3. Sophia loved the snow in Mt. Baldy yesterday :)
4. Taking her on our 5 mile hike tomorrow, should be a blast!
5. I need to make up some flyers for my private swim lessons!