Blog Revisited

My promise(s) to myself:

1. I promise to try my hardest to keep up with my calorie counting. I also promise not to be down on myself for missing some calories/meals/days!
2. I promise to watch what I eat without making myself go CRAZY! A balanced, well portioned diet will go a long way.
3. I promise to workout, frequency undetermined.
4. I promise to weigh myself once a week (every Sunday morning).

The more I read over everything I have written tonight the more I think this will be my body and health mantra. I want to make sure I stay positive, no beating myself up! frequency undetermined, because after all... I want to stay happy and I don't want to kill myself with workouts. If I take a day or two off then it's because I felt I needed it, and I will get back to it when I'm ready no judgments of myself.

Bottom line, I want to feel good in my own skin. All the pressure is on me to make sure that happens, I just hope my mind and my body can collaborate on this matter!

This was something I posted a little while ago, my way of life mantra if you will. For the past 2 weeks (ish) I have not been working out at all. I have actually been feeling very weird about my entire life in general. My days consisted of sleeping in until about 10am and then once I finally did wake up I would immediately turn on my TV and catch up on any shows. While watching TV I would think about working out, or other productive things that I should accomplish during that day, but would continue to convince myself that I could do it tomorrow, or that whatever it was I needed to do it could wait. The only thing I have myself committed to right now is work, which is always at nighttime, so this laziness would ensue until it was time for me to get ready for work. I would work, come home, go to bed, and the whole thing would start over again the next day. Since I only have work going on in my life right now I have been feeling very mopey, like my life at the current moment has no purpose. I am stuck in this limbo between school and my career and in the meantime I can't find the drive to get myself out of bed and do something with my day. 

I AM SICK OF FEELING LIKE THIS! I am done with laying in bed and lazing about all day! So I'm done with that! Of course every once in a while a lazy pajama day is a must, but to be doing it every day is just not healthy! I decided to re-read my lifestyle mantra for a few weeks ago, and to remember that I do have goals that I want to accomplish. The good thing is that I did write about not getting down on myself, so I am taking my own advice! Apparently I needed a few weeks of nothing to recuperate from the burnout of working out daily and working so much at Cheese. Fine I'll except that, and apparently my mind needed some extra time to rest while in this weird limbo, that's fine too! And now that my mind and body have caught up with each other, and are both sick of being lazy I will do something about it :)

Sunday is weigh in day... dun dun dun.... I weighed myself this morning just so I wouldn't be so shocked when the time came on Sunday. I was positive that I gained weight what with all my lazing about (although I have been making a good effort to eat better). To my surprise I was 145 on the money. This makes me happy! I have maintained my weight throughout my period of laziness :) YAY body! I went running this morning, and I know we will do something active when we hang out tomorrow, and I will weigh myself on Sunday with no expectations :) If it's any less I will be ecstatic, and if it's still 145 I will also be ecstatic!